Archive | August, 2011

Dreamer

26 Aug

The last few weeks, I have been extremely busy day-dreaming and making plans for my future. Daydreaming takes a lot of energy and time you know? I am a big dreamer and what I believe I want for my life changes with the wind. But I realized, there is something that always remains.

And I am going to share it with you right now.

It is ambitious. And a little unusual for a single woman with a child.

It might look like this:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And may include some of this:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And definitely this:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There won’t be much of this:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

But a lot of this:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And it most likely will be in an area like this:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ahhhh…. yep, that’s a little piece of heaven right there.

Brick Wall

24 Aug

Do you ever feel as if you’ve just plowed into a brick wall, head-first? Yeah, I’ve been  getting that feeling this last week.

Imagine if you will, I am a real competitive runner (funny, I know), on the line of a race, waiting for the whistle to blow…

Whistle blows.

I jet off the line with my upper body propelling me forward. I throw all of my energy and strength into moving forward. I’m getting a steady, strong pace going and as I start to straighten my body and lift my head to look ahead…

SPLAT.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Brick wall.

I crumple to the ground.

This hurts.

Disappointment. Pain. Frustration. Humiliation.

How could this happen? I was running so fast and strong and I was LOVING every second of it.

Do I just remain on the ground and cry?

Do I crawl off the track and back into the stands where I came from? To the safety of spectating?

Or do I peel myself off the asphault, dust myself off and start again?

My intention of this post is not for  pity or consolation. I’m just being real. I’m being fragile. I’ve experienced a week where everything that could possibly go wrong has. And it’s right on the tail of feeling like I was on top of the world. And for the record, I will get back up and run with all my strength again and I will love every second of it.

Office Romance

23 Aug

I have enjoyed various flings “romances” at my places of employment throughout the years. It entertains my ever-progressive mind while I attempt to do the tedious day-to-day tasks required of me in a typical 9-to-5er.

The most memorable? Dustin while working at Robyn Todd, Patrick at Crossroads Plaza and Dave at SkinCareRx.  Some romances have been completely out in the open; others have been cloaked under the cover of secrecy (always more fun in my opinion!).

I think it’s high-time for another one.

And if it can happen like this, that’d be ideal. Minus the guy’s wig.

1st Day of School

22 Aug

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Can We Change the World?

20 Aug

“Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world; indeed, it’s the only thing that ever has.”
–Margaret Mead

Gemininity

19 Aug

I’m fascinated by astrology. It’s vast and complex and it boggles my mind, but it intrigues me. This may be due to the fact that  my personality traits are described almost to a T, when the Gemini  horoscope is discussed- which happens to be my sign.

Sign of the Twins

What are the traits of a Gemini?

Adaptable, Intelligent, Unreliable, Youthful, Clever, Witty, Communicative, Flighty, Intellectual, Uncommitted,  Lively, Adventurous, Diplomatic, Cheerful, Impatient, Indecisive, Talkative, Mutable, Restless, Impulsive, Social and Playful.

That’s soooo me right?

I came across this horoscope for a Gemini in 2011. I must say, this is eerily accurate thus far.

Let’s take a look.

Your social life picks up its pace from January to June this year, dear Gemini. It’s a time of interesting connections, and for some of you, partnering opportunities can be made through or with friends and group associations. You particularly enjoy sharing your expertise with your associates and networking. From June forward, you can experience a greater love of solitude. It’s not that you’re unsociable during this period – it’s more about feeling quite comfortable when alone, and there’s an important difference between the two states of mind. As well, you will find that putting others’ interests ahead of yours tends to bring you the most rewards. You may be doing a lot for others, but you’ll be enjoying doing it! For some of you, in the second half of 2011, partnering opportunities may be made through the Internet or other channels that allow you to connect anonymously at first before meeting. Again this year, those of you who are dating or involved in a more casual romance will find that you’re a little more serious and selective. For all of you, in the second half of the year especially, you tend to go with the flow in romance rather than rush in. Parents might invest more money and time into their children’s hobbies, or find themselves creating more structure for their kids. Creative pursuits that most attract you now are those that generate tangible rewards, and you may be putting more energy and work into your own hobbies. A long-term cycle that’s influenced your career for many years is coming to an end in March, 2011. With this cycle’s end, dramatic ups and downs in your career path tend to subside, although you are still required to adapt to more subtle shifts. Your aspirations begin to change. The cycle that begins with this one’s end is bound to shake up your social circle. Some friendships may be left behind, and new ones are made, although they may not be quite as reliable as the ones you had in the past. July through October can be a strong period for finances – both material and emotional support is more readily available to you. June is an important month for taking charge of your life and beginning new long-term projects. The second half of the year can bring more emotional energy to a partnership, and for singles, the possibility of a new partnership altogether. Overall, Saturn’s influence this year is good for feeling on track, stable, and strong enough to meet life’s challenges. You are less inclined to rebel or react in 2011, and more inclined to live in a more authentic manner – true to yourself.

According to this horoscope:

Your social life picks up its pace from January to June this year, dear Gemini.
Hmmm… interesting. I went through my dating frenzy and subsequently overdosed on romance in about May.

From June forward, you can experience a greater love of solitude. It’s not that you’re unsociable during this period – it’s more about feeling quite comfortable when alone…
What?! I just wrote about this yesterday. See blog post here.

For some of you, in the second half of 2011, partnering opportunities may be made through the Internet or other channels that allow you to connect anonymously at first before meeting.
My dear blogger friends, the very conception of this blog was in early July.

Again this year, those of you who are dating or involved in a more casual romance will find that you’re a little more serious and selective.
From my point of view, there has been slim pickings as of late. Hence, my current dating hiatus.

For all of you, in the second half of the year especially, you tend to go with the flow in romance rather than rush in.
Sounds aaaaaaa-mazing.

Parents might invest more money and time into their children’s hobbies, or find themselves creating more structure for their kids.
I have been searching for the perfect residence to provide more stability in Carter’s life and in mine. A post featuring my house hunting adventures coming soon.

A long-term cycle that’s influenced your career for many years is coming to an end in March, 2011.
I have been in the beauty industry since I was 16 years old. Finally, I have given it up in pursuit of something more substantial and fulfilling. My beauty career peaked in March and April. And then, I moved on.

Your aspirations begin to change.
New ideas and goals have surfaced. Simplicity rules the day lately and a recent epiphany is in accordance with this.

The cycle that begins with this one’s end is bound to shake up your social circle.
Let’s just say I have had to do an inventory of relationships this year. A few didn’t make the cut.

You are less inclined to rebel or react in 2011, and more inclined to live in a more authentic manner – true to yourself.
True. Very true.

So is this astrology stuff nonsense? Rubbish? Hogwash?

Check your 2011 horoscope and tell me what you think. Any truth to it? Comment below!

How To Be Alone

18 Aug

Saw this video floating around on the internets.

I love it.

For most of my life, I have required, no I have commanded, that I am with people at all times. I was never comfortable being alone. I was the child that would sneak out of the house to go play with my friends at six years old (Carter has repeated this very thing recently) and to be alone was akin to death in my world.

Being a divorced woman and single mother, I was forced to be alone for a time.  It was hard. I hated almost every minute of it. But guess what? It was healing.

Years later, I find myself willingly, longingly even, looking for these quiet moments of peace. I look forward to every moment spent alone; whether it be reading a book in the park or driving home from work in the car.

I finally have embraced me. I no longer look for validation in that of others company or companionship. And when people do show up in my life, I invite them in knowing that if I was fearful of being alone, they may have never showed up anyway.

Lonely is a freedom that breathes easy and weightless and lonely is healing if you make it.